Letting Go

I'm 32 years old, a mother and in the middle of a divorce. Got married at 19 to a person who was nine years older then me. We started a family quick and I did a lot of growing up. Like all marriages, mines had ups and downs. Unfortunately for me there were many more downs. Our daughters were the only good factor from our marriage. After 10 years of trying to conform to what he needed and wanted me to be.....I CRACKED. I became his machine. I no longer did things for him because i wanted too but because i knew he expected me too. I gave him more then I received in return and my solution was to continue to live a lie. I was not happy with my marriage and most importantly who I became. I saw no way out.

 I was faced with some life changing decisions and in an act of desperation I choose too be happy. My actions to obtain my own happiness was selfish and unfortunately effected others but i don't regret my choice. It's been 8 months since my separation and I've been the happiest since. I deactivated my Facebook account and was off the "FB grid" for a while. I've started this blog to record and share the start of my new life in turn to hopefully let go of my past.